Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Alhamdullilah, Praise to Allah

[Caution mushy post ahead. If you have an aversion to mushy posts please stop reading right now and read this instead.]

When you first asked me to marry you, I wasn't sure. All I answered was "In due time." You know that I am not the sort who makes false promises, especially those I am uncertain if I can keep.

The day we got married, I was still apprehensive. I too wondered if I made the right decision. I also wondered, what if Mr Right comes along later and I have already committed myself to you? But I accepted the fact that only predestination that enabled us to meet and finally got married. If any of the sequence of events didn't happen the way it happened, our paths would have never crossed and we would never have had the oppurtunity to meet and got to know each other. It was pure divine intervention, and I accepted that.

Allah sent you to me, answering my prayers after my heart has been broken into a million pieces. All I asked from Him was to give me a man who loves me more than I love myself. A man who has faith and will be able to lead me to the right way. A man who will be true to me and will cherish and appreciate me for the rest of our lives.

When I first met you, I never thought that you were the man I was to marry. My best friend and my mum will attest to you that my comment that night after the lunch date was, "Ahh dah jumpa dahh. Dah tua! Gemuk bulat plaks tu!" Although in my heart I knew that the woman whom you will eventually marry will be a lucky woman and will be taken care of very well. I just didn't know that the person will be me.

Its been a while now that we have been married, and I can tell you that I love you much more today than the day we got married. You tell me that somedays you wake up wandering, "I am really married to her?" And it felt like we only got married yesterday. It has been a long yesterday. We had our ups and downs. We had our struggles, our sacrifices and our adversities. And I am so glad that Allah has given you to be with me on our journeys. He couldn't have picked a better man for me. And I have since learned to trust and accept His judgement.

Somedays I have been insecure. It upsets you when we found out that our friend was having an affair, not you, and you came home finding me in tears, doing some soul searching. Its only because I think you're the most valuable thing I have in my life, just the thought of the possibility of losing you was unacceptable for me. I realize that perhaps sometime in the future a loss would be inevitable because we all would have to move on to the next life, but a loss in death would be different than a loss in life. But Alhamdullilah, you have been good to me, you have been understanding although sometimes you were upset that I was upset. But hey, its only because I love you so.

So with each passing year, I would have to thank Allah for giving you to me. For the good life He has given us and hope that He will continue to bless this union we have. Please continue to be a companion and a partner in this journey we're embarking. My hope for the future is that we will grow old and happy together. We will continue to hold hands even in the sunset of our lives, that we will continue to make each other happy and will be there for each other, still true to each other and still in love with one another.

Happy anniversary darling! You are my Mr Right, I may not know it then but I certaintly have realised it now. May Allah continue to bless us all.


atenah said...

Alhamdulillah you both are indeed blessed.

iJun said...

Happy anniversary you guys! Bila nak turun London lagi? Dinner is on me!

Mobilemom said...

Happy Anniversary!! :)

teek said...

happy anniversary sunny! this is soo lovely, kalah hollywood's movies.

*me blogdrive

Sunflora said...

Thanks for the kind wishes Atenah, Ijun, Mobilemum and teek :)

NurElsa said...

a bit late, but still wanna wish you Happy Anniversary!!!

AuntyN said...

Sorry a little bit late. This is a beautiful entry. Happy Annivessary, May Allah bless your marital journey.